letter to amma

Amma I love you,

I know you are watching me and protecting me every minute . while I miss your touch everyday but I know I am surrounded by your blessings .

I know it was difficult for you to leave us mid way but I am glad you made the right choice because we could not  see you suffering .

To be honest amma , it does not feel as if you are not here with us physically , we feel your presence every time we are home, we feel you are coming home back from work and will check on us as soon as you enter, I can feel your magic in every corner of the home.

I am part of you even before I knew my identity , so I know our bond is eternal. I know how you will react watching me from there doing all the things I do .

Watching us at this very moment , I can imagine how much you are missing Raaga and me.

I still don’t know if I have completely accepted your departure , or if I actually just did not digest the fact that you chose a new world too early .

Amma , I miss irritating you as soon as I come home , I miss you feeding me when I ignore to eat , I miss you sorting fights between me & Raaga , and I miss our family karaoke sessions because we don’t have a purpose and audience any more.

But ma I don’t want to miss you being here for me , because I know you are still there for me and that you will be there , right there when I need you  and I promise ma I will do you proud.

Amma , I’m sorry ma , even though I expressed my love for  you through tiny acts ,I  told you I love you very  occasionally, but you always knew I loved you , I still do and I will continue to .I know that you love us forever amma , but I just wish I had said it when you could reply .

I love you Amma

Amma , you are the most wonderful person I ever witnessed  , You understood me so well ; fighting cancer is not easy and I still wonder how you managed the pain so well without telling me a word about it . You’ve taught me how to be as confident as I am , you’ve taught me how to keep myself together , you’ve taught me that it’s okay to be messy and confused as long as I know I am myself , you taught me how to create my own  principles , you taught me how to be independent , but I thought independence was just standing up on my own feet , I didn’t know it would come with so many responsibilities .

More than anything ma , you are the sculptor of this statue and I promise it will make you proud .

SRILAKSHMI KANAKALA (1975-2020) You are Beautiful, Strong and the absolute BEST MA.

THE SMALLEST THINGS WHICH PUT A SMILE ON MY FACE :)

It was one of the most happening days if my state , the people here are going to elect a new government , that is going to rule over them for the next five years , the media , rich , middle class, and poor , hindus , muslims , cristians  , people of all religions cast and creed , gathered near the election booth as always to execuite their right to vote .

While the entire state was busy with elections , one of our team member got a call at the start of the day post breakfast, from Phonix arena , an it building near madhapur   saying that they have food for  1000 people . scince  breakfast time had almost come to an end , what can we do with the food ? 


The point here is , maybe the middle class & rich have the distingtion among breakfast ; lunch; dinner; supper ; etc etc ……But for the undrpriviledged , what is required is just “food” .
So we decided to recive the food & distribute it in meenakshi , rainbow & oracle 3 ,slums . Me , Barish , Jay , Namrata , Ambrish & Swamy .

We distributed it was lunch time , after serving the pongal and chutney while we were keeping them entertained , Anshu went and got them chocolates , later on after distributing the chocolates ,when we decided to leave , this boy who renamed himself as ‘DJ’ came up to me and offered me some of his chocolate , I seriously made me cry ,

The way he  expressed thankfullness it just makes me not have words , and  now if you had to ask me what is the best moment of your life then I shall definetly say that , this moment it is , and this moment will stay in my heart and with me throughout .The love Dj had in his eyes will just make you forget everything and do this for the restof your life , you will feel that nothing materialistic can define or replace the love they all show us.